“You can’t start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one.”
How true. I’ve been through a tumult of changes over the past few weeks that I hope will lead to a better, brighter Lashawn. I’m feeling pretty introspective and energized 🙂
First off, I lost my job Saturday. It is what it is, I’m not going to go into specifics as to who, what, when, where, why, and/or how. I just think it’s pretty cathartic to be gone from the dealership because I was honestly miserable there and I feel so much better now that I’m, for lack of a better description, free. I feel amazing. I’m sure I really shouldn’t, since I no longer have a regular paycheck or whatever, but I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders. It’s been a long time since I felt legitimately happy…no more migraines, no more popping ibuprofen just to get through my work day, no more sick feeling in my stomach…It’s great. I already applied for unemployment and filed my taxes, so I’ll be okay financially for a while.
Which leads me to another broken string no longer holding me down to a miserable world.
Another reason I’m not exactly freaking out about my current lack of employment is that I sorta have something to fall back on. They’re opening a casino here in Cleveland in a few months, and I applied to be a dealer…I made it through my interview and orientation, and now I’m in the gaming academy to become a blackjack dealer. It’s a pretty cool process, and I’ve learned a lot since early December and have met some really awesome people along the way. I did my audition last night, and apart from a few minor snags, I don’t see myself not doing well. I find out how I did tomorrow, and I’m slightly nervous, but I figure that if this doesn’t work out, I’ll figure something else out. I think this job would open so many doors for me, and it will honestly be the start of a better life for me and Nicky.
I’m also going to take this newfound free time and use it to spend with Nicky and my friends and a few of those amazing people that I’ve met along the way down the road less travelled. I also think I’m going to try to attempt some of the things that I wanted to do while I was working at the dealership, but was unable to do due to my work schedule. You can’t really accomplish too much when you work in the middle of the day during the week and all day on the weekends with one day off. It was rough, so I’m gonna view this as a vacation of sorts and enjoy myself!
One thought on “Season One, Episode Twenty-One: Pursuing That Next Chapter”
Good for you babe!
I’ll be expecting to hear you singing whilst playing the guitar in your upcoming covers!